Aiden is growing up and that is really hard on me. I'm really have a tough time letting go. I know, he's only six, so your thinking, "what do you have to let go of?" It's him being a Mama's boy! I love being the center of his world. . .I need it! You see, when he was a Mama's boy, I knew I was doing something right.
I work a lot. If I'm not careful it's easy to look up one day and realize I have not spent enough with my kids or they got the "left-over" parts of me, when I was tired and run down. So, when your six year old starts transforming from a Mama's boy to a Daddy's boy, I can't help but wonder was it my fault. Did I not give him enough time, did I not play enough, was I gone to much etc.? You know the drill, how we Moms can blame ourselves for every little thing I children do. My mind knows that he is growing up and doesn't need the nuturing a Mama gives, but my heart still longs for my little boy who couldn't get through a day without cuddling up in my arms.
Reality is he has to grow up and when he's going through the next phase it will also feel bitter sweet. In the meantime, I am going to do all I can to be intentional about our time together. I don't want to look up and have missed one precious moment with this little guy. No matter how big, Aiden will always be my baby.
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